No one will get in our way.

Looks like I'm not going to Metro this year unless my grades improves. I felt horrible when I broke this to Jesse, because we were going to go together. At least he'll be closer (might, *cough*) when he moves back down to Florida from Ohio. JOY AND SaraH (Joy's girlfriend. Odd, she has the same name as me AND is in band) were coming too, if they could, and I didn't want to let them down. ;_; I gotta buckle down and hope that my grades improve. Being lazy isn't going to help, so I may not update often...

[EDIT] Okay, so I've got a real-life problem. I'm selfish and horribly jealous when it comes to this situation-- I even bitched and complained in the hallway about it when walking with my friend, I just couldn't hold it in anymore.
I used to be like, the ONLY talented person in my classes who could draw, and I used to be allowed to draw all over the board and stuff.
But now, I've got competition...

And I'm losing. And I can't stand it.

Not only did I used to -like- the person that I'm "against", but it's like I don't have feelings, or even exist, for that matter. I admitted this-- twice-- and he goes off and totally ignores my feelings, leaving me to rot deep inside, even though I'm with someone else more worth my time.
People are looking at HIS work, and when I mention that I draw too (I'm REALLY tired of being ignored), they just blink at me and look at me as if I was a voice from an invisible person and go back to HIM.
Sometimes I wish he'd drop dead and lose everything he has-- his talent, his popularity, and most of all, HIS SEAT NEXT TO MINE. He sits RIGHT next to me, and I'm just SO f$*&ing tired of all the drama going on in my head. I even asked if he noticed anything about me (I haven't talked to him in two weeks until now) and he says "Your hair! You straightened it, didn't it? And it looks shinier."
I was like, "...Is that all you look at? This has NOTHING to do with my physical appearance."
He gives me a blank look. What an idiot.
I'm trying to dump every memory I have of this person, but he's stuck there, like a damn hemorrhoid, causing me pain.

I need help. I need advice. I don't know how to stop thinking so selfishly and I don't want to think "That jerk is stealing MY limelight." any longer...
Notes would be great. I prefer to talk about this confidentially, though I am asking for help publically-- though I will be busy for the next few days, so I may not reply right away or the day after you send me a note if you do so.
I greatly appreciate those who have concern.

*SarahofDarkness.





School Countdown: 17 days left (counting exam days)

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For their AMAZING pixel art. You know how I am with pixel art.
They're a new artist too, so I hope they appreciate this feature.

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Also by , this was just my FAVORITE one because they were merperson-ish. <3 Major kudos to them.